mon beau désordre de la vie

My life, Beautiful mess.

This is in no secret from the movie For Lovers Only, but I couldn't help be inspired by it. It defines life at all moments and in any state. There is no negative or positive to it in it's whole, there is only the tone in which you state it. That's how life is though, the situations we get ourselves into, are defined by how we handle them. The moment is shaped by our person, the future is shaped by our choices.

There is something so honest and so bittersweet about that, isn't there?

An update on my life, in case you are new to the blog and go back and read old posts...you should know that there was some very intense and private matters that I couldn't write about, let alone put online. I would like be more open, but there are still some things that I may elude to that are not okay for me to say so I apologize in advance.
Well, it's been a year since my husband moved out. I can't say it's been easy or hard. Really it depends on my mood, the tone if you will, of how my life is going and what is happening in it. I am finishing up school as a surgical tech, my daughter will be starting kindergarten, and my son will be three soon. I've lost 70 pounds in a year since going vegan, and it's been amazing. I am starting to explore flirting and dating, which is fun, but also kind of scary. I've been with my soon-to-be-ex since I was 18...how am I supposed to pretend I have any idea of how to navigate the adult dating world?? haha. I know that God has my perfect person and that it'll happen when it's supposed to and I'm in no rush...I didn't listen before when the signs were there, but I don't plan to make that mistake again. I have no regrets however, because I have two of the most amazing little humans now.

I know that things happen for a reason, I live by the idea that pain perpetuates change. As long as you don't wallow in the pain, allow it to consume you, then you can take away the good aspects and leave the bad...learn from it and let it help shape you.




And I'm in love with this song...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OsYa6xGl7eg